HCG or NO HCG???

Last year my family and I did the Biggest Loser. Three of my family members did HCG and had amazing results. I debated whether or not I should do HCG and decided against it mainly because I was getting ready for another IVF cycle and could not do HCG. But then Jeff did HCG along with my brother and sister in law. When I found out I wasn't pregnant I said screw it for almost a week and gained 6 pounds and was almost back to the 170's in weight. I was very upset because for a year I had been trying to get out of the 160's with my lowest being 161 for about a day and hanging on at 163. So, Jeff and Char said if I wanted I could have their HCG drops and start the diet. So a week after I found out I was not pregnant I started HCG. I did absolutely no research about it I just ate what the book pounds and inches told me eat and that's all I knew. I quit wearing make up, lotion and deodorant for 3 weeks. This is how it went for me (I really should make my blog private after putting in my weight but oh well its just a number and this again is MY journal) my starting weight (after loading & saying screw it for a week) 169.8 lbs, Day 2 I went to 165.6, Day 3 I went to 162.2. I was thinking holy crap in 3 days I am already lighter than I had been working for all last year. Now I stayed at this weight until day 5 when I was 161.4, day 6 161.2, day 7 160.4, day 8 160.2, day 9 160.6, day 10 was FABULOUS I reached 158.8. Now 158 was always my goal weight I had no desire to get any thinner than that. Well once I reached this weight I was like BRING IT ON!!! Day 11 157.6, My weight from there did not change until day 16 and I was struggling with eating 500 calories and losing no weight. When I say struggling I was not hungry just disappointed. I wanted to lose a pound a day I was GREEDY!!!! Day 17 another joyful time I weighed in at 154.8 and stayed there until Day 23 where my final weigh in was 152.2. I was off HCG and on my final day of 500 calories. I was SO HAPPY!! Of course I would have been happier to be in the 140's but come on I was 152.2 and I was thrilled. I was talking to my friend on the phone and she said what clothes can you fit in now. I said none I hadn't been this size since I don't know how long. It was then I remembered saving a pair of Lucky jeans from when Jeff and I were FIRST dating. I pulled them out, and believe it or not I pulled them on and did the damn things up. Now they were UGLY and I have no idea why I kept them, probably because they were $69.00 dollars and back then it was like $250.00 but I could fit in them. I was now really happy but not quite satisfied. To be honest I don't know if I will ever be 100% satisfied but I am motivated. I had 3 weeks of maintenance to complete and I didn't want to gain any weight back in that time. So, I jumped right back into working out and ate great. I feel wonderful and finally finished my HCG diet of 6 weeks including the 3 weeks of maintenance. I had NO SUGAR, or WHITE ANYTHING for 3 weeks not even a sip of PEPSI!!!! I feel GREAT!! I also have new goals and new plans but first....

Here are the jeans when Jeff and I are dating, yeah they fit differently then but remember bitches I have had a baby since then....

Here are the jeans today. They are ugly, they come up to my boobs and taper at the legs and I will never wear them in public but they fit so I am sharing this with you..

So now what, I want to weigh 148 that is my next goal. How do I get there, for me I keep the sugar and white carbs OUT and I started the P90X workouts and so far I love them. I keep feeling great I hope and I keep my body getting more fit!! I really want to run 1/2 marathon but I don't know if my knee will ever allow me to do it but I am going to keep trying for this goal. If nothing else I want to do the South Weber 10K this year. Finally would I recommend HCG to people, I still don't know about that. I don't know enough about the long term effects of it but I know for me it saved me from myself during a very hard time in my life. But now I would prefer to work out hard and lose it the right way but it has to be a big commitment you are ready to take on, the diet is not for wimps or cheaters!!! But if I don't lose the weight I want to now will I do HCG again? I don't know, I hope I don't have to make that choice, I hope I can keep losing on my own!!!